Hey guys, how was your week? Mine was wonderful. I had such a good time and it was so refreshing to actually enjoying myself in Germany again. I realized it was (partly) my fault for just sitting at home, feeling sorry for myself. Who knew I just needed to step outside and DO.
So let me tell you what I actually did.
Usually a night means I'm online playing games with friends on teamspeak. Some of those friends live in Berlin too but there are a couple who live pretty far away. One had to come to Berlin for work and some of the teamspeak people wanted to meet up - including me.
There was only one problem: On the day he was here - tuesday - there was a giant thunderstorm coming up. If you have read a couple posts before you know I'm terrible with humitidy. Thunderstorms in particular fuck me up. I literally faint sometimes when lightning strikes.
My friend Klasi works pretty close to where I live and he suggested we take the train together after he gets off work. That was the plan. However I felt so shitty and went to the doctor. They took so much blood which made me even dizzier. In the early afternoon I took a nap to see if my body could overcome its "mood" by resting. No such luck. I canceled cause I felt like was dying. Around 6 I decided to start dinner and I went outside to get some herbs from my garden. I noticed that the weather wasn't THAT bad. Sure it was humid and kinda gross but it wasn't Florida. I spontaniously decided "Hey, I can do this. Fuck anxiety". So I texted Klasi to see what time we could meet to take the train together. He had already left work but offered to wait for me. Unfortunately I had no makeup on and wasn't prepared at all to leave right away. So I hurried like I've never hurried before and met Klasi at the subway station. You expect the subway to be a little cooler since it's underground. It was not. We switched trains and tried our luck upstairs. We got a little breeze at least. We met the other two guys (Thomas and Ref) at our favorite burger place "Burgers Berlin". We sat outside, watched the storm and got a little wet. It was so cool to finally see Ref. I have never met him in real life, I only knew his voice from teamspeak. We sat there for a while and talked and laughed - laughed and talked. Even with the crazy storm (and my slight fear of lightning) it was a really fun night and I couldn't be bothered by the little shitty things. Life tested me on the way back. I still had an hour on the train ahead of me...alone. And lucky as I am there were problems with the tracks which caused a stop and go - more stop than go. So the entire thing took even longer, BUT it was okay. I did not freak out. No problem for Jen (anymore).
The only problem I had was that I was wearing summer clothes and fliflops when the night had turned into rainy autumn. Rain and flipflops are a bad combination. I actually didn't really care cause I was so happy and extremely proud of myself since I pushed through my fears and my not well being.
On wednesday Ref was still in town and texted me if I was free in the afternoon. I only had one seminar so I had time. This time we were meeting up in my hood, close to my school. I suggested to walk around in the park til Thomas arrived to meet us and then all go to a cocktailbar. Our timing was great cause it was happy hour - which means get two drinks for the price of one.
It was a nice spring(ish) day so we sat outside. I haven't eaten cause I came right from school and so the one mojito I had (I shared my two with Thomas) really got me drunk. It was a happy drunk - a really fun drunk. Again, we talked and laughed - laughed and talked but parted ways a little earlier than the night before. I actually got the chance to make the dinner I had started and didn't continue 24 hours ago.
It was chicken wings with rosmary-honey-mustard-potatos and garlicsauce.
YUM!!!
Thursday: The plan was to get up super early and meet my friend at the train station to go to a barbecue. It was a german holiday where people usually just get wasted and ride their bikes (not so much bikepart in Berlin). Check it out, we call it "Männertag" or "Christi Himmelfahrt".
Anyways. My biological woman clock went off and I felt like shit. It wasn't happening for me. I was pissed. I really wanted to go cause I loved my new outgoing self and forcing myself to not being lazy actually worked and made me happier. But man, I got the cramps and they were bad. All I did that day I did horizontally. And to get the estrogen on another (higher) level I watched "Sex and the city" (show not movie) with a hot-water-bottle on my belly. After dinner it got even crazier. I now present to you: The Ultimate Period Image.
A grumpy pimplefaced woman in sweatpants and her hair in a bun goes to a movie rental store JUST to get icecream and a diet coke instead of a dvd.
It's unbelieveable how fast I can be when there is Ben & Jerry involved. Eating that giant bowl of icecream was insanely satisfying.
Friday was a less painful day. My good friend Mot agreed to come pick me up for the weekend. Back to the roots.
It was good seeing him again and the ride was really fun even though the navigation system fucked us.
When we reached Cottbus I tried to remember when the last time I visited was. I couldn't. It must have been years and years.
But I still recognized certain areas and buildings but for some reason the city seemed emptier.
At Mots place I got super excited to see the new kitties. They are just the most adorable little cats.
Just look at them. The grey one is Hanni and the white one is called Hercules. They are gorgeous and extremely soft and fluffy.
The entire place looked great and I immediately got the feeling of: "I'm not leaving".
The terrace is my favorite part of the apartment. You guys know how much I love gardening and plants in general, so this was like heaven.
That night we ordered pizza and relaxed. Relaxed in those things:
Those are the most comfortable kind of chairs existing. They can transform into somewhat of a bed. Well not really, but you can definitelly lie down and sleep on it. Trust me - I tried, and succeeded.
For saturday we actually just had food plans. We wanted to go to this restaurant we ate years before called "Kartoffelkiste". I ordered the asparagus with sauce holondaise called "a pound of asparagus". I did not know it was literally a pound. There was NO way I could finish it.
It was delicious. After dinner it started to rain and we traded going out for icecream for icecream at home. My belly was rioting. WAY too much food. The rain actually helped with our night plans. I don't think any of us actually wanted to step outside and do something.
Back to the comfy chair it was. More TV, more relaxing. This might sound lame for most people. But for us it's the funniest thing. We make comments (mostly hilarious) about what we see and crack up. We might be a little silly but in that area - we are made for each other. We used the Ipad for those funny photos...you know what i mean those effects that make you look extremely ridiculous. By the way, I set the new record for ugliest photo EVER. I will not show it to you because there is "look how funny is this ugly picture of me" and "oh my god I can't believe this is you, I'm gonna change my entire believe system after seeing that - it's so ugly". This picture...
I have no words.
Anyways, our night was a lot of fun, I haven't laughed this hard in a long time - my belly was on fire.
On sunday we just really had foodplans (again). We were also supposed to help planting flowers on Mots grandpas grave. For some reason the entire thing was surprisingly upbeat and the cemetery was beautiful.
After that we went to a restaurant called "El Toro" and had tapas.
Let me tell you what you see here: curry chicken, fried feta cheese, meatballs and tomatesauce, mozarella sticks, shrimp in a honey sauce and pork with bacon. The dip was a garlic sauce. The BEST garlic sauce I've ever had. OH MY GOD it was good. The rest of the food was good, not great. It was also quite expensive. 3 bucks per tapa (is that singular?) and that's just on sundays. Some of those are usually even more expensive. In the big picture it's tough to finish all of it but if you focus on the detail: for 3 bucks each tapas bowl should have been filled a little more.
After filling our bellies we went back to the apartment and took a nap. =)
What a weekend. This time I actually enjoyed the laziness. Around 4 Mot drove me back to Berlin and I was actually kinda sad to see him leave. The weekend seemed way too short and I already miss him.
I can't wait to see him again and laugh til my tummy hurts.
I have to say it was a really fun week and I need to chase that feeling of social activities induced happines.
Hopefully there are more to come. I will let you guys know.